Talking about addiction in the Jewish community

Talking about addiction in the Jewish community

Local family decides to break the silence, discuss awareness and education, at Teaneck meeting

Editor’s note: This article won the following Rockower award: 

Category 13: Chaim Sheba Medical Center Award for Excellence in Writing about Health Care: Second Place – Division A. Newspapers 15,000 circulation and over; Broadcast; Magazines; Special Sections and Supplements; Web-based Outlets.

Comment: Addiction isn’t someone else’s problem, as one Bergen County, N.J., family learned. In this perceptive piece, Joanne Palmer relates the story of a young Jewish woman in rehab for drug addiction and her parents’ decision to demystify addiction by speaking publicly about it at a Jewish community event. Palmer deftly captures the daughter’s struggles and the parents’ angst, and supplements the family portrait with details about a local Jewish organization helping victims of sexual and drug abuse. The family’s courage and the compassion of caregivers are both memorable, thanks in good part to Palmer’s thorough and probing research and forceful writing.

It would be wonderful to live in a world where all you have to do is refuse to acknowledge a problem, and then it would dutifully go away. You know, a world where denial truly would be a river in Egypt.

But we don’t live in that world.

We do live in a world, though, where some problems are swept under rugs and left to molder, where some issues aren’t a big deal but others are paralyzingly embarrassing. We live in a world — all of us live in a world, no matter which world we live in — where no matter how you define perfection, the ability to enact perfection convincingly is highly valued.

We also live in a world where the rate of drug abuse is skyrocketing, where the opioid crisis is making itself felt even in places where no one ever imagined it could be felt.

In places like the local Jewish community.

On Sunday, April 22, Torah Academy of Bergen County will host a meeting about the opioid crisis, detailing, among other things, what parents should look for and where they can turn for help. (See box on page 28.)

According to a March 2018 report by the National Institute on Drug Abuse, part of the National Institutes of Health, more than 155 Americans die of drug overdoses every day; opioids include prescription medications, synthetic opioids, and heroin, among others. It is a horrifying statistic. It does not include deaths that are alcohol related, although, according to the Centers for Disease Control, in 2010 approximately 88,000 people basically drank themselves to death.

There are very real mental health issues that underlie these statistics, as well as social policy decisions. There also is the fact that addiction is a very real physical phenomenon, not a moral failing, and that some people’s body chemistries make them more likely than others to develop physical addictions.

It is a messy and unpleasant subject. Often it is easier to stigmatize people who develop drug or alcohol dependencies as morally delinquent than it is to acknowledge the illness and help them recover from it; the fact that there is no simple remedy, no magic pill, no penicillin equivalent, makes treatment hard and complete recovery sometimes chimerical.

Given all this, given the stigma that envelops drug and alcohol use, and given the close-knit nature of the Jewish community, and the myth that Jews never fall prey to such problems, it takes courage for families to admit that they have that problem. But of course once those families do take that step, the easier it becomes for others to admit to their own problems. Because it is even harder to deal with drug abuse when people feel isolated by it, because there is strength in these numbers, the more people come forward, the better it gets.

That’s why the Forman family of Teaneck has decided to go public about the problems their daughter Elana, the second of their five children, has had with substance abuse.

They will be on the panel at TABC next Sunday.

Elana is now 23; she lives in Florida and is very public about her story; “I’m pretty much an open book,” she said. But that wasn’t always the case. It took years for her parents, who are careful and loving and diligent and very smart but did not know what they were seeing, much less what they should be looking for, to understand what was going on with her.

Lianne and Etiel Forman both are attorneys, who met at Columbia while they were in law school. They moved to Teaneck, and their family flourished; Elana, like her siblings, went to day schools, and did very well there.

“Basically I was a child just like anyone else,” Elana said. “And then, right before high school, I started feeling that I wasn’t like my peers. I felt lonely and misunderstood. And my solution, the way I found to cope with these feelings, was alcohol.

“I started drinking when I was about 13. I took it from my parents’ liquor cabinet, and I associated with friends who were doing the same things. We all took from our parents, and we had older friends who were able to buy it.

“We did it mostly on Shabbas. We would drink and smoke weed. It was just basically to cope. I felt like everyone else knew what they were doing, and I felt completely lost.

On a recent visit to Florida, Lianne, Elana, and Etiel went bowling.

“My parents noticed,” Elana said. “They knew something was wrong. They sent me to therapy.” But they didn’t really know what she was doing, because “I was able to keep it hidden. On the whole I looked okay. Sometimes maybe I acted out a little bit in school, and the teachers might have thought that there was a problem, but there were no huge red flags. There was no big problem yet.”

Or, to be more specific, there was a big problem, but it was another problem. Elana also developed an eating disorder, and as is not uncommon, the eating disorder masked the drinking and smoking. “When my eating disorder was less bad, when I was eating more, then I would drink more,” she said. “It was all intertwined, and all coming from the same emotional place.”

But Elana also was a skillful performer, and she was smart and a good student. “I was active in school,” she said. “I played on sports teams, I was on academic teams, I kept up with everything. I was able to maintain a façade.

“Looking back, I don’t know how I did it. I had so many mental breakdowns behind the scenes.”

When Elana was in high school, her parents had no idea that she had a drug problem. What they did know, Lianne said, was that “her mental health issues started in high school, and for a long time we thought that she was clinically depressed. It was chicken and egg. Eating disorders come with co-morbidity — usually depression, OCD, bipolar disorder — so that made sense.”

But it wasn’t depression. It was substance abuse.

Elana’s substance abuse got dramatically worse when she went to college. “Then I had freedom, and I got into harder drugs,” she said. “Then my eating disorder was under control, but I had the same issues underneath, so once I had that freedom, once I was outside the little bubble I grew up in, that’s when I started getting into pills.

“I was self-medicating.”

As she had in high school, Elana threw herself enthusiastically into school activities. She was at Queens College, and “I was active in Hillel and in the community,” she said. But she started taking pills, “self-medicating, so I could keep up and live life,” she said. “But I wasn’t getting high to enjoy myself. It was a way to survive. I took Adderall during the day to keep up with my job and my schoolwork, and I would take downers at night so I could get some sleep.

“Without something in my system, it was hard for me to function.”

When she was in college, and even for some time afterward, Elana wrote papers for other students. She enjoyed it, she got paid for it, and if she took pills, she could stay up all night and work. “It was all connected,” she said. “Writing was almost like an addiction. I enjoyed the combination of being high and writing.”

It wasn’t hard to get pills on campus, she said; she had a prescription for Klonopin, and she could trade that for other medications that she liked better. She also used cocaine, which was widely available.

“Any time something was offered to me, I said okay, I’ll try it once. Something was always missing, so when someone said this will be great, I said okay. I didn’t have any built-in fear. Trying it was a no-brainer, and if I didn’t like it I wouldn’t do it again.

“But there wasn’t much that I didn’t like.

“Later on, when I got involved in a 12-step program, I learned that there was something missing for me spiritually, a hole that the substances filled. I didn’t now then and I don’t know now why I was so unhappy, and I figured that the substances that would get me high would fill the hole, but it never was enough.”

Elana made it through two years of college, but it wasn’t easy. “I had a couple of psych ward visits, and eventually, it all crashed in on me,” she said. She’d kept her parents more or less in the dark about her problems, but the school called them. They sent her to Israel, on a program for “troubled young adults.” It worked at first — “the geographic change was helpful, and it was good to be away from my friends, with a whole new set up and new support systems — but the drinking age is lower there. I wasn’t 21 yet, but all of a sudden I was able to buy alcohol legally. I was buying bottles of vodka and having them in my room.

“I started a new cycle of functional alcoholism — but how functional can you be if you have to drink in the morning?”

Elana’s unhappiness kept growing, and “I ended up trying to kill myself,” she said. “I had intentionally overdosed.” But she was discovered, and her stomach was pumped, and then she was sent to rehab. “I was there for three months,” she said. “It was helpful because I literally didn’t realize that I was drinking to avoid emotions. I was inept at dealing with life.

“I obviously knew it was wrong to use illegal drugs, but it wasn’t something that I talked about or realized was a sickness until my first time in rehab,” she said.

That was the first of her four rehab stays. “Residential rehab is good for separating from the substance itself, and to have extensive therapy in a controlled environment, but I am not a huge advocate of rehab because it’s not the solution,” she said. “The solution is what you find in your local 12-step meeting. Rehab is an industry.”

After a somewhat bumpy stint at the rehab center, and a few more months in Israel, Elana went home. “I convinced my parents to get me a plane ticket to come back to school,” she said. “I outlined my whole plan. I said that I had learned this and this and this about myself, and they believed it. And to some extent I convinced myself. But mostly I was miserable, and I would be miserable wherever I was, because no matter where I was I was with myself.”

It was around this time that Elana told Lianne and Etiel that “she was struggling with drugs,” Lianne said. “We met her for her birthday, and she said ‘I am having an issue but I can deal with it.’ We had known that something wasn’t right, but we didn’t know what it was.”

Then the Formans had to figure out what to do. Several years earlier, they had learned a great deal about mental health issues and eating disorders, and they thought that they could tackle this issue the same way.

“We looked for resources, and we didn’t find much in the Orthodox community,” Lianne said; much later, after Elana had already moved to Florida and been to rehab, she found Amudim, which provides case management for families with members struggling with drug and sexual abuse. Its founder and executive director, Rabbi Zvi Gluck, will be at the April 22 meeting.

They had to adjust to an entirely new way of dealing with Elana. “The newest way of thinking about eating disorders and parent involvement then,” when Elana was in high school, “was that your child cannot make healthy choices,” Lianne said. “They are so sick that they would starve themselves to death.” So the family used family-based-therapy, which dictated that the parents make all the decisions; that approach wouldn’t be possible with an adult child anyway.

Now, they went to Nar-Anon, a 12-step program for the families of substance abusers. “You have to understand that this is out of your control,” Lianne said. “This is not your problem. You cannot make it your problem.

Rabbi Zvi Gluck talks with a client at Amudim.

“There were so many stories in that room. There was the man with the 30-something son who is in and out of rehab, and he doesn’t know what to do. There is the man who comes home to find his wife drunk all the time, and he feels that he should stay home with her, but he can’t, and he doesn’t know what to do.

“There are people struggling with really big issues.”

It was odd going to meetings as visibly observant Jews, Lianne said. “We walk in, and I’m wearing a skirt and a hat because I cover my hair, and my husband has a big kippah. The 12-step mantra is a little Christian-ish, and there is an opening and a closing prayer. And then we are sitting there and one person asks another person about her daughter’s bat mitzvah. And then almost everyone in the room turns out to be Jewish.”

Lianne found a practice in Jersey City that specializes in addiction, and that practice found a rehab in Florida; Elana went there on her own, and has been in Florida ever since. Once she was done with rehab, she went to a halfway house, and then a three-quarter house; those residences have monitoring and oversight, appropriate for their level of care.

Also, “we got lucky,” she said. “When we were struggling with where she should go, we found a connection, an Orthodox guy in Brooklyn who is a recovering addict and helps families find the right rehab, and helps them with their insurance.” This man, Ezy Finkel, will be at the meeting next Sunday. “He’s an amazing guy,” Lianne said. And it is Ezy who introduced Lianne and Etiel to Rabbi Gluck.

Closer to home, though, she still didn’t find much help. “In the year and a half since we’ve known about this, I have not met another family in Teaneck who is dealing with this,” Lianne said. “This cannot be. There is an epidemic in the whole country. It cannot be that we are immune to it.

“People are not talking about it because there is a stigma attached to it, because the stereotype is that people who do drugs are low-lifes. In the years when we were dealing with mental disorders, I came across other people dealing with mental disorders. At least they were being discussed. I cannot believe that just because I have never come across anyone who says ‘Yes, my friend too’ or ‘yes, my son too’ or ‘yes, my daughter too’ that means that it does not exist in our community.”

Elana still is in Florida; she’s been back and forth, clean and not so clean, but now, she says, she is clean, and she thinks that this time it will take.

She had some severe setbacks in Florida; it wasn’t until after she was in rehab that she shot heroin. “I had smoked it before, but I had never shot up. This was the first time I did, with a needle. It is as physically addictive as anything.

“Even back in high school, smoking weed, I was afraid of needles. People who shot up were scary people, who lived under bridges. They were criminals, in my mind, who stole things. But that same mentality I had before — that if something was offered to me, I’d just say yes automatically — I was constantly searching for the external thing that would make me feel better, but I never found it.

“That’s because it didn’t exist.”

Luckily, Elana stopped shooting heroin before she became addicted physically.

It was around then that the epiphany that she thinks will keep her off drugs happened. “I don’t know how to explain it, but in the program we call it a spiritual awakening,” she said. She found herself in rehab against her will; she’d been so high when she was checked in that she didn’t remember it. “But in those last two weeks, something just clicked in my head.

“Until then, the most important thing to me was me. It was ‘Am I feeling okay?’ And if I wasn’t I had to get high.

“But then it just clicked that the world is not necessarily all about me, and how I feel. There are approximately 7 billion other people in the world beside me, and when I get high to escape my own internal feelings, I am screwing over at least one of them. I’m screwing over my own parents. Why am I hurting them? Why am I more important than they are?

“I didn’t want to be a person wasting away her life anymore. I knew what I had to do to get clean and stay clean.”

She also knows real darkness. “The girl I was relapsing with down here overdosed and died. There was a guy who I did drugs with up north who is dead now. It is crazy to me that I know so many people my age who are dying. I know more people who have died than who have gotten engaged.”

But she is moving toward the light.

“For me, the 12 steps are the solution,” she said. “So I started going to meetings and working a program. It’s not therapy. I don’t do therapy any more. I don’t have to talk about my problems. I have an outline of how to deal with them.

“I understand that God has control of my life. Not me. And I have to accept things as they come and work on myself and keep my side of the street clean. To take things day by day.”

“Now I am in the process of rebuilding my life and myself. I have friends down here. I have a job. It’s not my dream job — I deliver pizzas — but it is a legal job, that I hold down, and I have a car that I bought for myself, and I have insurance that is in my name.

“I used to worry about the future but now I have more of a sense that I don’t know what is in store for me, but I know that I do have a future. I have something to look forward to.”

She wants the Jewish community to realize that she is not an outlier, and that addiction is a threat there as it is everyplace else. “I would say that in the Jewish community in general it is taboo to talk about drugs. I found that when I was going through what I was going through, I had to keep up the façade that everything was okay or I would be labeled as the bad kid, and parents would tell their kids not to hang out with me, because I would be a bad influence.

“Of course, they might have been right about that,” she said parenthetically.

Elana also “struggled with spirituality,” she said. “That is also taboo to bring up in the Jewish community, because it is assumed that as a Jew you have a God who you believe in. But some people don’t feel a connection to God, or are still struggling with it. What it came down to for me is that addiction is a spiritual hole, and I found that there was no outlet for me to talk about any of that stuff. I couldn’t be caught questioning God, and I felt that there was no room for questioning.

“It is important for Jewish schools to pass on tradition and halacha, but if there is no room for any conversation, for anyone to say ‘Hey, I don’t believe in God,’ or ‘I am struggling with God,’…

“There has to be room for that discussion. There are too many things that are taboo, and it leads to too many people struggling.

“People should know that there are people to talk to.”

The Formans plan to begin that process. “It is very important for the community to be aware of the problem, to recognize signs and symptoms, and it also is very important to support other people,” Lianne said. “It is a communal issue, and it deserves communal support.”

The panel next Sunday evening will include Mr. Finkel, the recovering addict; Rabbi Gluck, who heads Amudim, and Rabbi Laurence Rothwachs of Congregation Beth Aaron in Teaneck. It also will include Etiel Forman, who will speak publically about Elana for the first time.

“My husband and I feel like it’s like ripping off a Band-Aid and baring our souls,” Lianne said. “I was worried and said to my husband that my worst enemy and my best friend and the stranger on the street will associate our name with this. Are we sure we want to do this? My husband answered, ‘Do we want to get rid of the stigma or not?’”

They do.

“Our motto lately has been go big or go home,” she said.

“I am not worried about being judged, because if you don’t understand or want to understand, if you don’t want your mind to be open enough to understand — then I don’t need you.”

Amudim offers help in the metropolitan area and beyond.

Before they went public, the Formans checked the idea with all their children. “I think their generation is so much more tolerant,” Lianne said. Her children were fine with the idea. “I asked my young children if they’re okay risking being judged and known as ‘the sister of an addict,’ and they said ‘Who cares?’”

And when one of her sons was asked what his sister was doing, at a time when his parents were mumbling and obfuscating, he said, “‘She’s in rehab,’” Lianne reported. “My husband said, ‘She’s not in rehab anymore.’ And my son said ‘Okay. Now when people ask, I’ll say ‘She was in rehab.’”

In other words, there is nothing to hide.

“And Elana said ‘Go for it,’” Lianne continued. And it is important to all of the rest of them to show Elana that they are not ashamed of her. “By our using our name, and her name, it shows that we are not ashamed,” Lianne said.

“I think that our message will be very clear,” she continued. “We are the kind of family that people would never suspect this could happen to. Elana got into Macaulay Honors College; she played varsity soccer, composes music, is a very talented pianist, and always was at the top of her class academically. My husband was president of TABC and we are very involved in the community, and in charitable work.

“It is important to talk about this both because it is important to destigmatize, and also because families feel isolated and alone,” Lianne concluded. It’s good for parents to learn “how to detect and prevent substance abuse.

“Also, it helps for people to know that they are not alone. And if you hear stories of recovery, you know that there is hope.”

Rabbi Zvi Gluck, who heads Amudim, began his work with what is called the “at risk community” — a term he loathes because “who decides who is and who isn’t at risk?” — in 1998, when he was 19. “A friend of mine had passed away from an overdose, and another friend had committed suicide,” he said. “I started volunteering at a drop-in youth center then.” He’s from Brooklyn; “I’m a chameleon,” he said. “Our father raised us to be involved in all communities. I went to a chasidic school, but I was more worldly than the average person who went to a chasidic school.” He worked as a liaison for the New York City police department when he was in college, and he continued to work with teenagers and young adults; he got smicha in 2002, “but I used it mainly for public service work,” he said.

Rabbi Gluck began to notice that “more and more of the problems we were addressing were directly or indirectly the result of sexual abuse, and that many of the addicts we were working with were the victims of sexual abuse,” he said. Those victims were both men and women. Most of the people he worked with were “from the Orthodox community, but we were open to everyone.”

At the beginning, his work was more or less ad hoc, “just Zvi Gluck trying to help people,” he said. He always had a day job. He found himself spending more and more time raising money for specific people, going to potential donors and then asking the would-be recipients to get in touch with them personally. He lacked the standing and infrastructure to move funds from donor to recipient himself. “In 2014 I was at a dinner party with supporters, and one of them said, ‘This is getting ridiculous. You need do so something more formal.’” He demurred, but in the end he gave in.

Amudim was born in 2014. It is housed in lower Manhattan. “Our original mission statement was about crisis intervention, with a primary focus on sexual abuse,” Rabbi Gluck said. “It was to create awareness and break the stigma, and let people get the help they needed. It also was to create better services for people who needed help, particularly in the underserved community.

“One of the important things I like to remind people is that when we are dealing with issues of sexual abuse, the issues we face in the Orthodox Jewish community are the same issues that any tight-knit minority community faces. It is not specifically because they are Orthodox. We realized that even if there were services available, they were not accessible, and we agreed to focus on being a resource center for people, helping them to get services in a healthy and systematic fashion.”

Amudim is a case management agency; it matches people with services and provides oversight for them over a wide geographic range. Most of its clients are Orthodox and from Brooklyn, but many are not. “All the staff are clinicians, not because they have to be, but because I opted to have staff who are not just paper pushers but know what they are dealing with,” Rabbi Gluck said.

And although Amudim began with a focus on sexual abuse victims, “we decided that we would open the resources to addiction, because the addiction to opioids was getting bigger and bigger,” he continued. “It was no longer just kids playing with pot and pills.”

Amudim has grown quickly. “We started off low budget,” Rabbi Gluck said. “We never dreamed how big and how quickly this problem would blow up. We started with three staffers in 2014 and went to 16 by the end of 2017. Our budget went from $380,000 in 2014 to $1.3 million in 2015 to $2.6 million in 2016, and we closed out 2017 at $3.8 million. We have been fielding 200 calls a day for help. Not every call ends up as a case; sometimes people just want a listening voice, and I remind the staff that this is as much a part of our job as anything else. And sometimes people who reached out to us to talk six months ago call back and say, “now we are ready for help.”

The agency has served about 4,000 clients so far, and has an open case load of 1,300. That includes 65 clients in north Jersey, 200 in south Jersey, with many of them from Lakewood, and 87 in Rockland County.

Many of the clients suffer from both sexual and drug abuse.

The caseload has grown along with the staff and budget. Why? “It’s hard to know, and that’s the God’s honest truth,” he said. “There certainly are more and more people reaching out for help, even in chasidic circles. We have seen a large increase in the number of people who have reached out for help who in the past might not have. But it’s hard to tell — we’re not running a numbers game.”

Amudim does not limit itself to Orthodox Jews, or even to Jews at all. But it is alert to specifically Jewish needs. “On Pesach, we found appropriate places for recovering addicts where they can go to a seder and have no problems with the four cups of wine,” Rabbi Gluck said. Because sexual abusers often victimize family members, Amudim can help those victims avoid spending multi-day chaggim in the same house, sharing bathrooms and meals with their abusers. That’s cultural sensitivity at work.

Rabbi Gluck frequently speaks publicly, and he is almost always accompanied by an American Sign Language interpreter. “Victims of abuse and addicts might have family members who are deaf, and they also need to be able to get access to the help they need,” he said.

There are some local Jewish groups where parents can go to meet other, similarly situated parents, and talk without feeling judged.

One is at the Kaplen JCC on the Palisades in Tenafly, where Jeffrey A. Berman, M.D., DFASAM, leads “Strength to Strength.”

The well-credentialed, board-certified psychiatrist, a former president of the New Jersey Society of Addiction Medicine, who lives in Teaneck, said that he started the program five years ago, when he was approached by parents “who didn’t know what to do. They felt isolated, and like they needed to talk to other people who knew what was going on.

“The big problem was isolation and stigma,” he said, repeating an often-heard theme. “We recognized it as a problem and knew that we had to deal with it.”

After a needs assessment, Dr. Berman concluded that the group most in need of help was the parents. “They were totally at a loss,” he said. “They didn’t know how to deal with it. They didn’t know what to do after the kids had started to get treatment. They didn’t know who to be open with. They didn’t know how to deal with what to say when they were asked about their kid, with the aftereffects of not going to Harvard but to a job at Starbucks — and having that job at Starbucks be a very productive, good thing.

“And what do you do when the kid relapses? Or when you have first detected the problem?

“The parents had all these issues to deal with. They felt isolated and stigmatized. They all knew that there must be other parents with similar problems, but they didn’t know who they were.”

When he says kids, Dr. Berman elaborated, most often he means people ranging from 18 to 30, although some may be as young as 16, and others as old as 33.

The group does not provide therapy; he facilitates what is mainly a parent-led discussion. It meets about twice a month, and there is a minimal fee. It’s drop in; to learn more about it, call Carol Leslie at the JCC at (201) 408-1403 or email her at

The Teaneck-based Jewish Family and Children’s Services of Northern New Jersey also hosts a group. This one is offered by JACS — its full name, which does not map particularly well to its acronym, is Jewish Alcoholics and Chemically Dependent Persons and Significant Others.

“It’s a monthly support group for Jewish people in recovery and their families,” Dr. Vincent Vaccaro of Cliffside Park, a longtime supporter who sits on its board, said. “It’s a self-help group,” which makes it different from the professionally facilitated (but not led) Strength to Strength.

To learn more about JACS, call (201) 837-9090 or email

Who: Amudim’s Rabbi Zvi Gluck, Beth Aaron’s Rabbi Larry Rothwachs, social worker Avi Shteingart, Etzy Finkel, and Etiel Forman
What: Will talk about awareness and education about addiction in the Jewish community
When: On Sunday, April 22, at 8 p.m.
Where: At the Torah Academy of Bergen County, 1600 Queen Anne Road, in Teaneck
For more information: Call (201) 837-7696, or email

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